狡兔三窟的第四窟(毆)

Grandma, I wanna have the same disease you had and then die just like you. I understand you wouldn't happy with this, but I had have a deep thought about it and make it speaking out of my mouth. In fact, from that very day, I had the thought. Grandma, if you can understand, the time we lived is different. The fact is, the economic environment nowadays is a hundred times better than the period you lived. However, living without you is terrible. I've been with you since I was given born until you passed away, can you imagine how lost I am? Okay, I can imagine you condemning me with the situation. (laughing) Until now, I'm still not brave enough to look back the diary I wrote on the very period. All are just like a mess, everything's in chaos. In the past, I lost faith. I stop praying anymore, I stop asking and talking to anyone anymore. As time goes by, time is really the best medicine I think^^ And living with my parents again reduce some of my sorrow. Of course I'm still thinking of having the same disease you had, and die just like you. But this time, I'll wait, wait until my parents gone and nobody will be sad because of my disappearance. As I know, losing someone you care is too harsh. So, grandma, please wait 50 more years. We will meet where you are in the future. 上面的話我實在寫不出中文......反正只是螢幕上看起來是中文或英文而已，還原狀其實還只不過是0和1。消化到大氣中也跟中英無關，是思念的強度問題罷了，不是嗎？